SUCIA
Get your mind out of the gutter
INSPIRATION
This song was inspired by a short film created by my friends, Chandler Dunham and Isabella Urdaneta. I thought their film, "Laundry Day" was sweet and simultaneously heart-breaking. I certainly recommend you watch it. I woke up one morning at 4 am, and couldn't get back to sleep so I began working on this composition. "Think I'm gonna wash you down" was the first line and I built from there.
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I dreamed of a change in myself. I wasn't taking care of my health. I saw that as the linchpin to my every trouble. I went and made the change. Life presented me with a whole new set of unique problems.
Be careful what you wish for, cause you just might get it
The genie in the bottle forgot all the fine print
I have dreamed of a changes in loved ones.
Hold your tongue, bash your head, or just pack up and leave instead.
You can't want something more than someone wants it for themself.
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Change of pace, change of face
Fresh new scenery
Greener grass in the other place
TRANSLATION
Dame ciclos
Obsesiones
Adorar el sol
Si tu mira demasiado
Lava los ojos
Give me cycles
Obsessions
To adore the sun
If you look too long
Wash the eyes
Like the cycles of a washing machine (una lavadora) I am cyclical. I try to remain vigilant. I can dogmatic. Through the process of writing this album I experimented with different ways to let go of unhealthy substances, mindsets, and relationships.
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It feels like everything happens in cycles, in seasons, in spirals.
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This is a song about getting clean. cleaning your act up.
This is also a song about cleaning your mind. Pornography is destructive. I have found so much peace in disengaging from pornography and over sexualization.
Meanings
Dreamed of a change
Life went asunder
No wonder
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The pattern of my life has been identifying changes I wanted to make. I have utmost faith in my ability to manifest those changes. Nothing has ever stopped me. But there's a sick little twist. Once I achieve the desired end goal, the universe sees to it that I am presented with a whole new set of problems. I've found this to be true in pursuit of a change in oneself, one's environment, or one's loved ones. In Still, I am grappling with the reality that no matter how much you change, you'll just be faced with more things you want to change. The most peculiar paradox. Somehow simultaneously, change is the only guarantee and the most powerful force, but yet ends up seeming so frivolous and impossible. Stuck on the treadmill. Running so fast, but standing still.
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STILL:
I wash and wash, and still, it's dirty